Ravings and Rantings

Welcome to my cloud! It's got a nice silver lining somewhere.....Some ranting, some raving--mostly positive stuff,lots of jokes (I can't stay serious). Nothing going on here that a pina colada or mohito can't fix.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

ReRun (slight)

Have posted on this before...but because I feel so guilty about the bounced check/cheque thing...here's some info re bipolar II from http://counsellingresource.com/distress/mood-disorders/manic-depression-symptoms.html. M and GI don't believe this fits me. I don't want to but man....

Criteria for Hypomanic Episode (this is what I had when I was officially diagnosed):

A. A distinct period of persistently elevated, expansive, or irritable mood, lasting throughout at
least 4 days, that is clearly different from the usual nondepressed mood. (can't say irritable has ever been an issue. Bouncy moods oh yes but not irritable).

B. During the period of mood disturbance, three (or more) of the following symptoms have
persisted (four if the mood is only irritable) and have been present to a significant degree:

1. inflated self-esteem or grandiosity (uhhhh not that I know of)
2. decreased need for sleep (e.g., feels rested after only 3 hours of sleep) (yup. 4 hours' sleep in 2-3 days)
3. more talkative than usual or pressure to keep talking (yes)
4. flight of ideas, or subjective experience that thoughts are racing (yes although I thought I kept quiet about that. Hmmm)
5. distractibility (i.e., attention too easily drawn to unimportant or irrelevant external stimuli)
(not sure)
6. increase in goal-directed activity (either socially, at work or school, or sexually) or
psychomotor agitation (well, the house looks great)
7. excessive involvement in pleasurable activities that have a high potential for painful
consequences (e.g., engaging in unrestrained buying sprees, sexual indiscretions (HA!
not me!!), or foolish business investments) (see house comment!)

C. The episode is associated with an unequivocal change in functioning that is uncharacteristic of
the person when not symptomatic. (have more energy than have had in many years)

D. The disturbance in mood and the change in functioning are observable by others. (oh yes, at
least to/by people who know me)

E. The episode is not severe enough to cause marked impairment in social or occupational
functioning, or to necessitate hospitalization, and there are no psychotic features. (yes)

F. The symptoms are not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of
abuse, a medication, or other treatment) or a general medical condition (e.g.,
hyperthyroidism). (yes)

Note: Hypomanic-like episodes that are clearly caused by somatic antidepressant treatment (e.g., medication, electroconvulsive therapy, light therapy) should not count toward a diagnosis of Bipolar II Disorder.

Here is another good-looking source of info. This links, for what I would think are obvious reasons, bipolar-ism to diabetes, heart conditions and other health issues.

Thanks for the comment, Tshsmom, and thanks for letting me think out loud, world. It helps more than words can say.

Big hugs and enjoy the day, it looks magnificent out there!



  • At 5/28/2006 12:23:00 PM, Blogger Wandering Coyote said…

    Wow. If you're like that for 4 or more days I can only imagine what the other part, the depressive part, is like. The higher you get the farther you crash, right? Yikes.

  • At 5/28/2006 12:25:00 PM, Blogger Wandering Coyote said…

    I rarely use cheques because of what happened to you. We had a bounced cheque once because we'd bought a piece of furniture from a friend in January, which we paid for by cheque. They didn't cash the cheque for three months and we discovered this when our rent cheque bounced. The thing is you usually get dinged by the bank so you wind up paying a penalty for your mistake...

  • At 5/28/2006 02:02:00 PM, Blogger Bridget Jones said…

    WC, here's the scoop on the depressive stuff:
    A. depressed mood most of the day,
    nearly every day, as indicated by
    1. either subjective report (e.g.,
    feels sad or empty) or
    observation made by others (e.g.,
    appears tearful). Note: In
    children and adolescents, can be
    irritable mood.

    2. markedly diminished interest or
    pleasure in all, or almost all,
    activities most of the day,
    nearly every day (as indicated by
    either subjective report or
    observation made by others)

    3. significant weight loss when not
    dieting or weight gain (e.g., a
    change of more than 5% of body
    weight in a month), a decrease or
    increase in appetite nearly every
    day. Note: In children, consider
    failure to make weight gains. (I
    lost weight big time)

    4. insomnia or hypersomnia nearly
    every day

    5. psychomotor agitation or
    retardation nearly every day
    (observable by others, not merely
    subjective feeling of
    restlessness or being slowed
    down) (had the restlessness one.
    could not stand being alone or in
    the house)

    6. fatigue or loss of energy nearly
    every day

    7. feelings of worthlessness or
    inappropriate guilt (which may be
    delusional) nearly every day (not
    merely self-reproach or guilt
    about being sick) (yep the
    worthless part)

    8. diminished ability to think or
    concentrate, or indecisiveness,
    nearly every day (either by
    subjective account or as observed
    by others) (indecisive but not a
    about work)

    9. recurrent thoughts of death (not
    just fear of dying), recurrent
    suicidal ideation without a
    specific plan, or a suicide
    attempt or a specific plan for
    committing suicide (can't say I
    remembered this one)

    B. The symptoms do not meet criteria
    for a Mixed Episode. (huh?)

    C. The symptoms cause clinically
    significant distress or
    impairment in social,
    occupational, or other important
    areas of functioning. (at the
    time yes)

    D. The symptoms are not due to the
    direct physiological effects of a
    substance (e.g., a drug of abuse,
    a medication) or a general
    medical condition (e.g.,
    hypothyroidism). (no, had all
    those tests done)

    E. The symptoms are not better
    accounted for by Bereavement,
    i.e., after the loss of a loved
    one, the symptoms persist for
    longer than 2 months or are
    characterized by marked
    functional impairment, morbid
    preoccupation with worthlessness,
    suicidal ideation, psychotic
    symptoms, or psychomotor
    retardation. (check!)

    WC, know the expression "long dark night of the soul"? This was it. Sounds like what you're going through too. Have not had any of these since I was put onto Paxil (the right-for-me antidepressant), thank God. This must be what Hell is like.

    How were your friends able to cash a check/cheque that old? Usually after three months a check's/cheque's considered 'stale' and the author has to re-issue it.

  • At 5/28/2006 07:31:00 PM, Blogger jules said…

    Having recently been "diagnosed" with bi-polar disorder myself, I can understand where you're coming from. I DID have the sexual indiscretions, (no money to bounce around, I guess). And in the US a bank can often cash a check for up to a year. Which totally screws up your bank account when they do!

  • At 5/28/2006 07:41:00 PM, Blogger Bridget Jones said…

    Oh Jules, my sympathies! This bipolar thing is a recent diagnosis for me too and I'm still trying to get used to it (mid April). It was a real blow but so far so good...

    It explains a lot but sheesh. Hope you're doing OK?

    A year to cash a check?? Holy flipping cheeseburgers!!! How can anyone keep up with that???!!

    Best of luck with this thing we share..Bridg

  • At 5/29/2006 03:02:00 AM, Blogger saby said…

    i used to be bi-polar too
    oscillating btw highs and lows

    until i took my condition to Jesus
    and asked to be free from medication (my shrink said i had to take medication for life or i cud be in bad trouble in my lows and in my highs too)

    praise the lord
    i am now free

    and in a continual state of bliss
    its a beautiful world now

    tank u Jesus

  • At 5/29/2006 03:03:00 AM, Blogger saby said…

    if u see Vest
    tell hin
    i miss him

    and hope to continue to miss him

  • At 5/29/2006 06:48:00 AM, Blogger Bridget Jones said…

    Saby! Long time no hear, and welcome back! Please be nice to Vestie. He is my buddy and I love the guy--both of you actually. So you two play nice, OK?

    Know what you mean about highs and lows. Can't say that I have many lows--mostly hypomania (shopping sprees--you should see my closets). Thought that that was under control until I got busy fixing the house up.

    Now that I've scared myself to death financially, maybe that's under control too.

    Have doctor (shrink) appointment today. Will know better this aft what's up. Can't say I"m looking forward to it since I know I messed up. Am also asking for help from The Man Up There. It always works, although not always in ways I thought it would. This feels like the night before parent-teacher conferences (da da DUM DUM!!!)


  • At 5/29/2006 09:50:00 AM, Blogger tshsmom said…

    I know what you mean, Bridg. God can have a bizarre sense of humor sometimes! ;)

  • At 5/29/2006 06:48:00 PM, Blogger Bridget Jones said…

    Tshsmom, He sure does!!!


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