Ravings and Rantings

Welcome to my cloud! It's got a nice silver lining somewhere.....Some ranting, some raving--mostly positive stuff,lots of jokes (I can't stay serious). Nothing going on here that a pina colada or mohito can't fix.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Can't Smile Without You

Well world what I really feel like right now is Dead Skunk In The Middle of the Road! Have been working my tail off since 6:13 this a.m. when The Most Spoiled Cat In The Universe got me up. Actually I think I snored myself awake but she jumped up and started purring very loudly in my ear and that did it. Sorry, snoring isn't very ummm ladylike but it's probably due to allergies/heart stuff. It'll go away.

Have been working since then. No joke. Won't bore you with the details, but STILL have not finished everything I have to do to get this place cleaned up and that doesn't include the M. Maids either.

Have a weird allergy to clay (the stuff they put in make-up and cat litter). The room in which this computer is located is also where Miss Smokey's litter box is situated, and this morning I broke out in hives so severe (while I was on the computer) that I wound up vacuuming anyway. So the M Maids don't have to do this room lol. The hives are still there (and gross, bleeding YUK). It's a hell of an allergy. Once, played tennis (in The Dark Ages when was married) with Bro and his wife and Da Ex. We were in one of those bubble dome-y tennis courts. Bro took one look at me and said "get out of here". We hadn't been on the court 5 minutes, no kidding. Had hives under hair, all over body including soles of feet. EWWWWW. The courts were red clay. Then Bridg began to get a bit of a clue.....about clay anyhow.

Did I mention spending all day hier gardening (after getting hair done to hide white roots) or doing 7 loads of laundry today? Guess I am a slob. Well, no really, think that between being down to a staff of 2 instead of 15 at work for two weeks, burning out, plus the heart/broken arm/no sleep-bipolar stuff, have no energy to deal with much once I get home. And now that am on the right meds, am getting sleep, eating better...then kinda threw myself a curve with GI but hell it's worth it. And the house is really looking nice!!! The cat is very confused tho (serves her right getting me up that early, the beast).

Hey come to think of it, if I haven't bored you all to tears by this point, I have a big serious question for y'all: do any of you have opposite-sex platonic but important (never were never will be physically intimate) friends? Just realized that I have four: M (OK I think he's gorgeous but it's never ever going physical it would be just too sick), Jery, Ray (never mentioned him before but will someday) and now GI. Not that GI have been in touch for a long long time but he's important. Have one or two very key female pals too (Peggy you darling I mean you most of all). These aren't folks you ncessarily see every day, maybe not for years (esp. in GI and Ray's cases) but that doesn't mean they aren't special anyhow. Know what I mean or am I blithering here? Anyhow would appreciate hearing.

We moved around a HECK of a lot growing up so pals mean a lot. Well they do anyway but especially so to me anyway. And of course you guys are included in there so MWAH.

OK enough blithering. Time to take meds, take out trash and (sigh) put laundry into dryer.

Night world, hope your Sunday was as lovely as it was here...love ya!!

Bridg

Thank You Lord (It's Sunday, After All)

I'm in a Yahoo group called 01Angels. They send you angel cards every day. Look at what arrived for today:

GRACE

Know that the right and proper actions are occurring for a higher
purpose. Divine order is in action and what is happening is
appropriate. Know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Take
positive action. You are divinely protected and temporarily exempt
from harm. A good time to move right through a situation. Divine
intervention is a hand gently guiding you into the right place at
the right time. You've won the "race". You hold the "ace" within the
grace card. Often, when you draw this card it signifies your need to
honor the dignity of others and not try to rescue them. Call on the
Angels or guides for spiritual help. With this favorable card you get
an extra blessing. It surrounds you in fortunate, lucky, protective
energy. A most favorable time to manifest virtuous projective
energy. A most favorable time to manifest virtuous projects of
Divine origin.

&

Your Guardian Angel

Behold, your own personal Angel. A devoted companion, she is there
for you in the moment. Blessed with Divine grace she is supportive
of you wherever you are and in whatever you choose to do. You are
not alone. The healing energy of this Angel is sensitive and
nurturing. Her gentle strength and courage symbolizes hope for a
bright new future. This Angel will light your way as you face the
darkness of your past. She can help release you from the destructive
bonds of guilt. She will give you the courage to let go of obsessive
patterns and old pain with love and forgiveness in your heart. She
will take your hand as you claim your rightful place in a better world.
Her subtle presence will help you to open to an abundant Universe
filled with love and light. She will teach you how to embrace it and
truly feel worthy to receive. She will whisper ways to find perfect
balance and harmony from within. She is the manifestation that
Peace is possible.


'Nuff said.

Thanks, Up There. And thanks especially to DMJ and Scrunch for being there with wisdom and friendship at just the right time (as well as verbal spankings). Also tshsmom, Jeannie, WC and SME (and the rest of you, you know who you are. MWAH to each and every one of ya!).

Love ya and couldn't/wouldn't be any fun without ya, Bridg

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Stay

Maurice Williams (as Bridge remembers it)

Oh won't you stay
just a little bit longer
please please stay
just a little bit more?

Thanks Scrunch for inspiring that memory and for that wonderful lyric you posted in your comment on last night's post.

Have been cleaning my hyper little ass off today and am nowhere near done yet. This did start before GI and Bridg connected but kicked Bridg into hyper speed sorta after the connection was made.

Have been glancing at the phone a lot expecting an 'I can't come after all' message but no such thing.

Got the car 'detailed'. Forgot how to get to the place, even tho I've been there a thousand times in 34 years. Who, me, nervous about GI? Had to actually ask strangers at a gas station how to get there. Cleaned up the garden from last year too, even put St. Francis back there and left water for the birdies too. Had to stop a LOT because of headaches which I never get and wondered why because am on meds for high blood pressure. Then read about this new bipolar stuff I"m on. It causes headaches. Oh. Oh well.

Something pushed two big (3-4") holes through the sliding screen door into the garden last night. Was going to fix the screen door (well still am tomorrow) and then get a planter to block the door (more charge card space than brains, Bridg). Then realized all I have to do is fix the door and shove it to the other side where the steps don't go. Whatever it is would have to hover in mid-air to get at the door. DUH. And BTW there are times I think it's nasty that I know how to do things like fix screen doors and change light fixtures. Are there any men out there who think that's sexy? Didn't think so!

Have done a hundred things today, thought of more to do, have even MORE to do that he'll never notice. And realized why about an hour ago. I don't want him to think "thank God I didn't wind up with this loser". Before you all yell at me, I know I'm not a loser, but I think you can see why I worry about looking like one with him. To him I mean. He's very kind, he isn't judgemental, but still it's in the back of my head. I know I need a brain enema, if there is such a thing. Don't think it's just a weight thing, not sure if it's a single thing (have had plenty of opps to be married), it's probably the him dumping me thing. Yep from the feeling that typing that sentence gave me, it's the him dumping me (ouch) thing. How dumb. That's something men go through many times in their lives. How on earth do you all deal with it? I'm serious here. How on earth do you deal with it?

argh

yours in utter quandary, Bridg (looking for brain enema)

Friday, April 28, 2006

The Way You Look Tonight

The Way You Look Tonight
Frank Sinatra
Some day,
when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow
just thinking of you...
And the way you look
tonight.
Yes you're lovely,
with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me
but to love you,
And the way you look
tonight.
With each word
your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh
that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.
Lovely ...
Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ...
Just the way you look tonight.

Hola world, hope your day was lovely too?

Actually Bridg's day wasn't lovely at all. We're all burnt out but let's not talk about that. M did it to Bridg again (not telling me stuff, then I get caught by Da Boss, who is the sweetest guy, not knowing stuff. He knows that M didn't bring me up to speed and he also knows it breaks my heart being in that spot. Told me it's the 3rd-4th time in the last two weeks M's left him in that spot. So I called M to warn him and M is ticked for Da Boss feeling that he isn't doing his job? He isn't!!! Bridg desperately wants to cry but of course, doesn't.)

New meds? Working fine. Bridg isn't near as hyper as normal. Shucks, nowhwere near as fun. Oh well. Had to grow up sometime.

One of the ladies at work (P, bless her heart) called for me to some cleaning places and found one that'll come do the vacuuming and wall washing on Tuesday. I love P!! She's very eager to meet GI. I"m still skeptical about him actually materializing but the house will look better. Car too if I remember to clean it. P was hinting to get new clothes. Hmmmm. Did pick up a necklace for GI's wife but one that I like too in case he cancels on me. Here's part of what I found about Iolite:
Spiritual and Healing Properties of Jade: It helps you to feel comfortable in the leadership role or and also makes others easier to accept you in that role also. This stone will prevent you from allowing other to walk all over you or for you to allow your emotions to control you. At the same time this stone does not allow you to martyr yourself. It keeps you from feeling your are the victim of circumstances also.

There are three colors to this stone each adding their effect to it, blue effecting friendships, gray professional, purple family or sexual relationships forum post from whitehorse womanolite helps to open the pathway for the spiritual. It connects the throat, brow and crown chakras. It opens a subtle and gentle gateway of communication to the Higher Self. It may be detected differently than you would expect. By this I mean, it may manifest as sudden "bursts" of intuition and you may have a higher awareness for guidance or purpose. A good stone for helping one find direction in life. The Shamans would use this stone to ensure accuracy with visions and in healing ceremonies to influence the spirits. Iolite also helps you to release the discord from your life. It is a good healing stone. :-) The most common colors range from a clear to a blueish-lavendar. But that is not the only color of the Iolite. It also comes in brown, green, yellow and grey. The properties listed above are for the blueish-lavendar

Our friends at http://www.luckygemstones.com/iolite-jewelry-blue-gray-stones.htm, say that:
A major gemstone of the 3rd Eye or 6th Chakra, Iolite is used to aid in astral travel and attaining deep trances. Placing the gemstone on the 3rd eye area is thought to improve psychic abilities. Considered an important Shamanic healing gemstone, thought to bring accurate visions and align spirits with the desired purpose.
Thought to bring balance to male/female energies and auric fields.
Thought to help people face and deal with changes in their life, easily, without the associated worry.
Considered a
Western Astrological sign of gemstone of Libra, Sagittarius and Taurus.
Thought to be
energizing to athletes and to help discern truth at the heart level.
Healing Properties: Thought to help the body release toxins, therefore important for the liver.
Scientific Properties: Composed of Magnesium Aluminum Silicate, it is found in schists or low-grade metamorphic rocks. It is easily identifiable by its pleochroism and by the fact it is the only purple mineral found in this environment.
This mineral is pleochroic, or changes color along 3 axes when rotated. It is generally yellow along the x-axis, darker blue/violet/gray along the y-axis and the z-axis is generally a lighter, clearer blue.
Gem quality Iolite is found in India, Germany, Norway and Madagascar as well as Alaska and Connecticut in the U.S. Hardness: 7-7.5 on the
Moh's Hardness Scale

So that was the day. Find out stuff that hadn't been done and would be too damn late in mid May hadn't been started (we only gave them our in put in March, guess it was too sudden). Arranged meetings. Went to meetings and got jumped on. Got folks settled down. Arranged more meetings (they don't involve me, BTW, this was M's and big shots' jobs not mine. Part of why I duwanna BE a big shot.And look at what happens...)

Mom says she's going to try out her bathlift tonight. OK sure.....

Gotta go, I'm crashing. Night world, hope your weekend's great. Weatherwise it sure is looking good here'bouts!!!

hugs...Bridg

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Everything Is Gonna Be Alright (Hushabye)

World it is GORGEOUS here! Cold, sunny but darn beautiful. Trees are greening, so's the grass (is greening a world?), groundhogs are coming out...lovely!

WARNING!! BORING PARA APPROACHING FOR REGULAR READERS!!

Just cannot believe that GI is coming here. Will believe it when I see it. Is maybe too much too fast? How could the wife of a guy that great let him take off to see an ex girlfriend, his FIRST girlfriend, let alone be OK with him talking to her almost every day for, what, five days in a row? Weird. I can't buy it. But whatever.

OK! REPETITIOUS PARA IS NOW OVER!!

My psychiatrist took me off of Paxil. Said that it is a 'brightener', i.e. makes you a bit manic (heh heh heh I'm already there, add GI to the mix and voila, hypo "up"). So she put me on something else. I am trying it out tonight so that I can figure out what it does to me before GI gets here. If it backfires, I'll go back onto the old stuff before he gets here.

Don't you love better living through chemistry (the old DuPont slogan of the 1950s?). Well, at least there are meds now.

She (the doctor) said that I traditionally get bursts of energy, then get drained of energy, then get depressed. I laughed, gave her GI's pic (found it last night) and said YOU try NOT getting energetic with that to look forward to (ha ha ha). That did make her laugh. Not the point of therapy but....

Bro fixed Mom's bathlift. Told her he hoped that this would make me not be angry with him anymore (for being nasty to me). I called him and said yah, ok. So next time I need him to help Mom I'll just get mad at him (ha ha ha). Mom's thrilled.

Work is so packed that it almost makes (this) one cry. All three of us were at that point at the same time today, but we soldiered through it. Thankfully tomorrow's Friday and M is back on Monday. Unthankfully, have a nervous breakdown to get through (re GI if it happens), MAJOR housecleaning to do, present for his wife to get, hair coloring/rescue etc. to get through blah blah blah over the weekend plus the usual weekend stuff.

Wish cloning was legal. I'm exhausted just reading that para. Am going to investigate getting a squad in to clean for me. Wonder how much they charge and how much notice?

Off to investigate.

Night world....Bridg

p.s. I am not a slob...at least don't think so.....

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Hooked On A Feeling

Oh world am so damn happy! Hope you are too!

GI called. Asked for a pic of old Bridg. Only have one. Will give it to him and ask him to send back a copy. Not that the home life is something I want to remember.

OK this is just me thinking out loud here so you can skip this para if you hate people psychoanalyzing themselves online.

He feels guilty about dumping me. I said that I was a spoiled brat then (was cute, used to being pampered by guys) and that home was so bad all I wanted to do was get married and get out of there. Being dumped by him woke me up (had not realized how deeply I felt about him until we broke up. Yep it took years to get over, but at least I got a degree which came in handy later). Also had to go through psychoanalysis to overcome parental damage (siblings haven't done that yet, rippling through generations, etc.) and just discovered the bipolar thing, and thank HEAVENS am on meds/talk therapy for that too. Can you imagine if I hadn't? I'd be like my witch ex boss raging at people-- ok may be exaggerating a WEE TAD here)..and on and on the damage would have gone. What if I'd had kids, etc. etc. No, everything went the way it should have. Dump, divorce and all. Things could have gone a very diff way if we hadn't split up. There's a lot of speculation there...I know...He thanked me for telling him this.

Can't believe that he still feels guilty.

Don't know where this is heading but I don't believe in co-incidences.

Nothing too interesting happened at work. Did manage to pass on some good words at exactly the right time (accidentally but hey, it happened!!).

Got the ultrasound done. Some thoughtful but possibly sadistic person left Herman and Calvin and Hobbes books in the waiting room. Can you imagine--you've drunk two litres of water in 20 minutes (two of those big bottles of Coke). You are not allowed to pee. And now you're sitting in a room with a bunch of other women laughing your a** off and you still aren't allowed to pee.

not.funny.

And then a kind of fussy German guy comes in to get you and presses a big f******g wand INTO YOUR STOMACH for a few minutes.

very.funny.

and that, my buds, is an ultrasound.

Oh and they take pictures of the whole thing.

I'm going to invent something like that for men.

Hey maybe that's why GI and I are getting together!!!

Night world!

Bridg

UPDATE

Went through pics. Found not just one but about six. He can have all of them if he wants but don't think wife will like that and will say so but leave it up to him to decide. Am also giving him a fat pic so she won't feel worried. Fair is fair. Also got him a DVD of a Simon and Garfunkle concert with all their good stuff on it including my faves plus a Marvin Gaye special CD. Now to get the necklace. And (groan) have to vacuum this place this weekend and get hair done Saturday am. Oh well for GI it's worth it.

ppss. Also found GI's pic. MAN he was GORGEOUS. I must have been out of my mind LETTING him dump me. Oh well.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

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Won't You Come Out And Play With Me?

(Like the puppy food commercial) Hi world! Today started off cold and softly rainy and ended up cold and sunny (LOVE that weather)! Hope your day was great? Weather and event-wise?

This satellite stuff is great. It's half what I was paying for cable, no kidding. And NCIS was on at 6:30 YAHOO!!

It was as busy as all get out in the office, and due to cars being sold, kids being sick and spring fever everyone but me and one other person had vanished by 2:00. Boy it was lonely. But hey.

That woman who called me an idiot on Friday? Turns out she does that frequently (to others, I mean). Talked to a bud who's a famous consultant. He laughed and said that I've joined a fraternity (Bridg pouts, since she thinks she lacks some basic physical equipment, but never mind) of people attacked by that woman including M and this very nice consultant. He (S the consultant) said that this fact endeared me even more to him (blush). Then Bridg talks to that woman's (TW's) boss' boss. I couldn't find out who the boss was from the listing on the Internet. The man insisted on me telling him what happened, so I did. He was horrified (but not surprised) and apologized, said he would tell her boss (who, it turns out, is a good guy). Boss calls me later. Gave him names of other folks who were at the meeting (from their org and mine) so that he can check it out with all concerned. Advised that M is furious (a rare and undesirable thing, he knows this). Says HE will be at the next meeting, M also. I say good, because I and staff won't meet without her being supervised. I hate and don't tolerate bullies. The others are gentle, collegial folks and all of them were in shock.

So that is that.

Mom played hookey from aquafit today. She said that her bathing suit was still wet from last week. Threatened to get her another one. She declined. Hmmmm. Why didn't feeble stuff like that ever save me from math homework?

Have not heard word one from Jery in months. He has either fallen off of the face of the earth, is drinking again (Jer if you are I will hunt you down and strangle you even if I have to get a stepladder to do it), in B.C., or recording music.

Pauly's on his annual one month leave. Yay Pauly!!!

And here's the big news--next Wednesday 2:30 is the G.I. in Ottawa day. Anyone know how to lose 80 lbs in a week? Actually I have a pretty good idea but it's disgusting. When he brought up the date that was my response ---'I can't lose 80 lbs in a week!' He kindly said that I don't have to. Also talked to his wife. She sounds like a really fun and great person too. VERY happy that he got a good person. Nothing's worse that finding out that a great person wound up marrying a witch (like my little Bro. Know what I mean?). GI played a much more significant role in my life than I realized (only guy who dumped me, took me years to get over it. No won't bring it up unless he asks, and if he does will be gentle). Is all quite good!

OK enough blithering. Off to visit you guys.

Night world.....Bridg

Monday, April 24, 2006

59th Street Bridg Song

Hey World, how goes it? Rainy and cool here but THINGS ARE GETTING GREEN (the ones that are supposed to be green, I mean) and the boidies (that's birds in Chicagoeese) are singing.
Meant to go into work, truly I did. But the last service guy left here at 5:20. Here's how it went....the satellite dish folks were to show up between 8 and noon. That meant, as far as I was concerned, not getting dressed/showered etc. till they left (just got dressed, ate, brushed teeth etc. and waited). While I waited, put away laundry, changed linen and cat's litter (not for each other), etc. They did come, and that's when the fun started.

Among other things, had to empty that #$%^ sort of oak wall unit. This took a long time, had to do it myself (arm in sling? Heart thingie? yah and lots and lots of %#^#&^ books. What was I thinking? Why read at all?). Then needed to get extension cord. Did I have one? Nope. Ran out and bought six of the $#^&&s. Meanwhile he (the installer) put the dish thingie on the roof in the rain (thank Heaven the condo made everyone replace their rooves last year, despite the cost). He also installed the other stuff on the TVs in the house. The pics are lovely, even though it's rainy. Have to leave the receivers on for 15 hours (called to check. They said yes but that doesn't mean leaving the TVs on. What the heck? OK......).

As the dish installer man left (around 1:00), I called work--too pooped to work. Then the phone rang.

Remember the handyman coming to help with the drapery rod and the stereo stuff? He had a cancellation and asked if he could he come over at 3:30. "You'll like this guy" says the scheduling lady. "He has the same sense of humor that you do, and he can handle both jobs" (she knows me because I've dealt with them for years--fixing the messes I make trying desperately to do it myself ha ha ha)."OOOOH yah!", says Bridg, "Please send him over, I don't take that much time off from work".

He is as promised. Funny, and smart to boot (don't get any ideas people, he is not interested in the female gender). I like him so much, I give him my unopened spare onion dicer from Ashton Green (dices onions, no tears. It.is.lovely, dishwasher safe, high quality and just the best invention since air conditioning and puppies. Plus now I have more space in my gadget drawer. Even offered him a bottle of wine but he refused. Did give me a discount too. Classy guy.

Noticed something when moving all those #$%&^ books around (many of which were cookbooks). The way that we cook, or at least the way that I cook, changed dramatically during a relatively short timeframe--my lifespan thus far. When I got married (Black Saturday, 1975), fondue was a big thing. My ex loved desserts and fondue. Many of my cookbooks' recipes were complicated, required large amounts of time, and frankly were not at all healthy. They tasted great but.... And this was 31 years ago. For some of you, that's before you were born. For others, it might not seem all that long ago. Funny. I'd estimate that there are about 30 cookbooks in my house right now that are only fit for recycling, yet during 'their day' would have been considered (ha ha) the cream of the crop.

Hmm.

And two firsts today, although not biggies on a world scale--forgot to eat lunch, and actually ate veggies (broccoli) because I wanted to. And it tasted good. And lightening didn't strike anywhere near me. Hmmm again.

Ta Da! Hell has now officially frozen over, world. Send the troops home.

This was the weirdest day, in what feels like a new wave kind of personal trend. I apologize for going on so much about myself, but what the hell is going on? It's like this bipolar diagnosis and the R****s whacko were GOOD things. Have been busy making all kinds of changes--home, health, even work-related. Those of you who read my good friend Drink More Jack's blog--the April 9, 06 post--remember when he was recently tortured about where he was going? Feeling like he was drifting/purposeless? I've felt like that for a good (HA! Bad!) 16 years or so, other than 'doing my job'. Even now I can't answer that question directly, but feel very driven. It's more than spring cleaning, it's like I have to get this stuff done and have to get it done now. It isn't being manic, my doctor said that manic = rage, and I sure don't have that at all. Not even close. Almost like waking up on a new planet but it feels like home.

Strange but nice feeling.

Have a pleasant evening, world.

Not in Kansas anymore but liking it, Bridg

Sunday, April 23, 2006

I"m Gonna Go Eat Worms

No it ain't self pity, world,...I've been cooking a lot lately...everything BUT worms and it's raining now so....

Made the brown rice thingie a few minutes ago. Nowhere near as great as anything WC makes but really good (no it isn't my recipe. It comes from a magazine called Real Simple). Contains feta cheese, brown rice, asperagus (1/2 cup I just use tips) chicken boullion, fresh dill and cashews. You boil the boullion (1 cup), add the rice uncooked (1/2 cup) and put it into an oven (covered) --the oven has been preheated to 400-- for 45 minutes till the liquid's absorbed. Meanwhile put asperagus into a pot, cover with cold water and bring to boil, then cook for 2-3 minutes. Then run under cold water to stop cooking. Wait for rice to finish. Add feta (6oz or 125 ml), 1 tbsp fresh cut dill, 1 cup cashews. You are done. You're supposed to add peas but I dare you to be able to fit any in. Feta isn't the most umm dietic cheese but man this is a great-tasting side dish. Goes with just about anything.

My bossy cat got me up at 7:30. Started cleaning out the (4) book cases in her/computer room. WELL there are now piles of stuff to recycle everywhere. Great honkin' ones. Tried to hook my sound system up so that I could HEAR it again (the Rogers idiots wrecked that) when they installed their cable on my TV. Was so annoyed that I disconnected it today. Not like there's anything on except Pretty Woman, Pretty In Pink, Back To The Future, Jaws and Top Gun anyway) and failed. So called in Handyman Connection to fix that and my drawdrapes which I"m not ummm up to fixing either. It's infuriating feeling 'girly' but...hey. At least things are starting to look more organized.

OK gotta go buy groceries I forgot to get yesterday (Mom too). And get dressed (it's only 2:47). Later, world. Enjoy your Sunday!

Bridg

p.s. Am now beginning to understand the despair of you folks married to pack rats.

Update:

M called and wrote me two notes. He said to write the trouble maker a stern note (He knows her, she's a female a**hole) I call them cloaca, which are organs birds use for the same purpose as well as sex. All of you who just went "ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww"--yah that's why I use the term. Sounds OK but gross. Anyway, now that I've had time to cool off and clean up (sorta) had a nicer and more to the point less offensive wording, so we're in agreement.He had wanted me to call him about stuff like this, which is great.His MIL isn't any more sick than usual, thank heavens. Mom and I got our stuff, I fixed/set hers up, Can't believe I worked as hard as I did in this room today. It still looks like it always did yet somehow the paper recycle bin is full (2 days after it was emptied) and we have two full trash bags now. How did this happen, hmmmmm?I think that the 'Sell this house" folks would cry if they saw this place.

Night all, am falling asleep (finally!!!) love ya!

Bridg

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Heart of My Heart

Still licking my wounds of Friday, world. It's raining a soft spring rain and a little cool here. Took Mom out shopping. She has this cute little habit, when we're out, of stopping to think and look around immediately after going through a doorway.

This charming habit today got me whacked by massive sliding glass doors at Loeb's. On both sides, simultaneously. It hurt.

This happens all the time. Today I complained about it, and insisted that she move to the side and stop getting me hit. She promised. Now I know why airlines make the seniors get off LAST.

Not much else going on. Tried to get more filters for the Sympatico Internet hook up. Can't buy them in a Bell Store, have to order them on-line. Can't, because you have to be hooked up already in order to order. Can't be hooked up, don't have enough filters. The place you order them from on the phone is only open during the week.

Sigh.

Mom, Sis and her fam are off to some show at the theatre tonight. Think I'll just relax tonight. It appears to be in the cards!

Oh yah, satellite TV arrives Monday. It's half the cost of cable. Only one dish for all the TVs. Can't believe the pace at which my life's changing.

Weird.

Night world. Hope you're happy, safe and warm....Bridg

p.s. Made ministrone tonight with garlic cloves (not the bottled stuff). It makes a big big diff and is much better made with the fresh stuff. MAN is it ever good!!! OK if GI can be healthy so can I. One step at a time. You know like the movie "What About Bob?"? Baby Steps?? Well, this is a baby step.

Think I might rent that one just to make myself laugh before I totally crack up.... lol.

Friday, April 21, 2006

He Called Me, He Called Me (Sung to the tune of "Chicago")

G.I., that is, world. Said he'd be up in a few weeks, i.e. not today, which gives me a few weeks to lose a billion pounds. I admitted I'd chopped my hair off to the end of my neck, which he thought wasn't all that short (had been 1-2 inches longer). I really like his voice.

And he called during office hours! Cool.

Thanked me for the chat the other night. Said it was natural, nice...I thought it was like a shot of sunshine.

Gotta hold onto terra firma here, this guy's married and we haven't seen each other since 1971.
Really.

I looked a LOT different then.

Both of us were struck by how it seemed like no time at all had gone by and how clear everything seemed. Hmmm.

Anyway, he had checked out what my car (Honda Si) looks like, but the only model he could find was a 2006 (no not on the Internet, he isn't computer literate. Odd, huh?). Liked it though.

Back to more mundane, at-work-stuff. Got told by an idiot that I am an idiot, in front of clients and staff AND a big shot (p.s. Of course, I am correct, not her!). Am still pretty pissed about it. Considering hiring a pie assassin (one of those folks who throws pies at targets in public)-OK not seriously but hey it's a cool fantasy. Actually this woman got two things mixed up, I now realize. The nerve of some people's children.

My busybody next door neighbor volunteered to rake the dead leaves off of my flower beds so I said OK. She thought I'd say no. Heh heh heh.

A colleague (a really nice one) called me looking for a job. I think I found her one, too. Sheesh I sure have the touch these days. Hope I get one too some day.

Most Spoiled Cat In The Universe scratched me somewhere where you don't wanna be scratched if you're female (upper) and I"m still very annoyed with her over that....

Night world!!!

Ouch!

Bridg

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Died In Your Arms Tonight

Hola again world. It was 23 degrees here...Celcius..That's 'frickin warm for Ottawa'.

Took a Coricidin II last night, went to bed at 8:30 and woke up WELL today. It's a MIRACLE!!!

Also went into work 1/2 an hour late. It's normal!!!

Finished more grotesque tasks today. Also normal.

Someone told me that my job title had changed, I was reporting to a Queen of Mean. Asked another Bossling. She said it was true, why hadn't M told me...I was ready to kill that man. Asked M's boss. It WASN'T true. After my heart attack subsided, I phoned M to apologize for the things I thought about him. Really. Then found the source of the gossip and corrected the error.

Got a nasty voice mail message from Bro hours later. Needless to say, I um....corrected that error in like terms. Advised Mom that we'd have a butt-kicking contest (Bro and me, not Mom and me). ROFL!!!

The Sympatico installation stuff arrived but I don't have enough filters. Why? Because I have (never counted before) too many phones (was going to tell you how many but don't want you to hate me. There are less than 10, more than 4. Decided one time I was sick of running after phones, but never realized how many there were here).

I.am.sick.

Well, time to make dinner.

Night, world. Hope you're happy, healthy and at peace.....

Bridg

p.s. I found a mentor/job for that alarm guy this afternoon who's a big shot. Did his cv come? Noooooooo. Damn.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Great Balls O' Something

Hola world! Bridg is ill. Everyone up here has a cold/flu/something. I have a fever/whatever and don't feel great but....not to whine.

Got the miserable-job-from-Hades done. M was standing by to help me via phone, the IM/IT folks couldn't help (not that I knew that) because they were flooded out of their building. When did Communications tell us this? 4:00. Thanks! I had put in as much verbage as I could and sent it back to the IM/IT folks and said "over to you guys", and let the Powers That Be know what I'd done. Done! And no one was killed. Not sure M will ever do that again, I made his life pretty miserable. And his boss knew about it too.

Told Friend of Friends Pauly what NBG had said to me hier (last) soir (night) and how depressed it got me. I think Pauly went and gave him s**t, because the guy took it all back today. Even if it's a fib, good!

Alarm system is now installed. The fellow who installed it is an East Indian (a nice one--I am NOT a racist, see April 15 post) and a mechanical engineer. I asked him to send me his cv, gave him some websites to go to and some names to contact, as well as my e mail addy at work. It doesn't take much to start someone off on a good job, the merest accidents got me started on my work life. You should have seen him grin. Advised him to go get an audit/accounting diploma to start off with. I meant it too. Hate to see talent wasted. Not that I know that he has any but GOOD GRIEF!! He sure can do better than this. He has a wife and kid and the wife is at home with the new baby.

Mom thinks that she can't use her bathlift (I mean that her tub isn't deep enough to use it. HA, says Bridg). So I arranged for the the store to send someone out there to take a look at it tomorrow. Bro the Boss will be there. That should fix that. I hope. $1500 is $1500 and I want her to be able to enjoy baths.

Got lots of other stuff done at work but don't feel like typing it up. Feel just too hot/fevery....sorry didn't mean to whine. Will visit around later. Sis and her partner and sick too. M's boss is sick...

Hope you're all well and happy world....stay out of Ottawa if you can, the place is full of germs for now!!!

Hugs from a safe distance, Bridg

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

The Sweetest Thing

Ran across the name of an old high school boyfriend a day or two ago as I was researching a topic in Vancouver, B.C. He was listed as the lead spokesperson for Persons Living With HIV and AIDS. I could not bear for the highly intelligent, gifted lad I knew, who was determined to be a doctor, to have this disease (and thus not be living his dream). It couldn't be my guy, could it?

So I checked out all G.I.'s on the Internet. Sure enough, one is an m.d. in Kingston, Ontario. Yet, I contacted each of the others too with the same question: Laurentian High School? Twin Bro?
All came back negatory but one, the one in Kingston. Yep it was my guy. I was his first girlfriend.

He introduced me to Jimmy Hendrix and Tommy/Magic Bus. Sent me yellow roses for passing my drivers' test. Gave me a gold locket for Valentines' Day and chocolate in a red velvet box. Listened to Bridge Over Troubled Waters with me.

GI called tonight and we spoke for at least an hour and a half. It was like very little time had passed at all. He was and still is the sweetest man I know. Married, but still quite sweet--sentimental as he put it. And likely to drop in my office so I have to lose 80 pounds in about a week (wish I was kidding about that). He has an interest in vintage guitars so is in Ottawa about once a month. MAN have I got weight to lose.

Don't want to give you the wrong idea. This wasn't a booty call or anything, just a long chat between two close buds. Sweet and warm. Did feel guilty about his being a doctor and me being a medical mess. He was concerned about the mess I'm in/am, and I said that I didn't want him to think I was after free advice (he offered to answer questions but since I do a fair bit of research I didn't really have any to ask besides was too excited to be talking to him in the first place).

But after a pretty stinky day, am now on cloud 9. Yes the probs of the day will still be there tomorrow but somehow they don't matter as much right now. I'll deal with them tomorrow after tonight's sweetness.

AHHHH sweet youth!!

*grin*

Night world!

Bridg (feeling much happier and lighthearted)

Tuesday, Tuesday

NBG (M's boss) insisted on us calling a meeting of experts today. We knew it was too fast but he insisted. Out of maybe 8 people three showed up. NBG was sick today and participated by phone. The most senior of the 8 people (a true Big Shot and a very nice one) said that he was not comfy with the low participation and that we should reschedule (Bridg mouths "thank you" at him). The most important person is in Europe for this whole week. NBG says fine, we'll reschedule for the end of the week (are you listening, man?). End of Shortest Meeting On Record. Bridg is ready to bop NBG, even if he is at home sick.

Meanwhile, M dumped a job that's been pending since December on Bridg, a job she hates and was a factor in her not wanting M's boss-ship. It was due on April 14. She has no idea how to do it, the folks who used to do it have left our organization for good and M is off for two weeks. Is Bridg happy? Not exactly, to quote Hertz.

She winds up talking to M's and her old boss. He tells her that layoffs are likely coming and is Bridg coming back to work for him and Mr. B. Bridg says that is has nothing to do with her old boss (G man) but she'll retire or clean toilets before she does that. And that NBG is on the record as commiting to hire her anyway. (Gynormous hint, it has to do with G man's boss, Mr. B (pond scum, remember?)

Bridg is a tad sad tonight. She doesn't like cleaning toilets.

Night world....

Monday, April 17, 2006

Neutron Dance

What a gorgeous day, world!

The security people (the good ones) called and confirmed the Wednesday night appointment. I called and cancelled the bad ones. They didn't argue about a thing. Then called and confirmed the low low price of the satellite system. Yep I had the right price (holy crabfish!). Did one laundry load.

Then got the blood test done (clerk was a nit-wit who managed to mangle my last name in an unbelievable way, even tho she had my health card). Then handed me something to pee in (huh says Bridg. I had no real ummm need or desire to). Asked for a cup to drink water with. Reallllly hopeless but ..... Thank heaven the twit was busy when I got back. Went to another person who beamed at me "that's MORE than enough!!!" (whew!). They found my vein right away (never happens) and the blood flowed (also never happens).

Then things got funky, mostly with men (no comment). As I left the lab, held the door open for a Japanese man who looked over 70. He marched right past me into the lab without a word. Not a thank-you, not a nod. I smiled and stayed there, continuing to hold the door open for a lady and her son who were about 15 steps behind His Majesty. She loudly thanked me. Laughed.

Right afterwards, drove around the same complex that the lab was in to drop off some old eyeglasses (they recycle them) at the optometrists'. As I drove around the complex, got THE EYE from some 65+ year old stud standing outside smoking in the parking lot. OH PLEASE. Nothing against 65+ year olds, but what the heck gives anyone the right to give anyone else that kind of look at 11:00 in the morning?

As I tried to fit the glasses into the receptacle, a man with his back to me was talking to a technician who was fitting his son with glasses. For some reason the father decided to back up on top of my foot, crunched my ankle and everything. Bear in mind by then I had had no coffee, brekkie or anything for at least 12 hours and had HAD it with men for the moment. He apologized profusely. I sighed and said "it's OK, it's only the arm that's broken" (I'm wearing a big black brace that looks like S&M attire. Yah yah I'm a bitch. Didn't even LOOK at the poor man) and left the scene of the crime (or is it crime of the scene?) quickly.

Had to change the bed linen, load the tires in the car, eat lunch and drive to the dealership. None of those things was fun. The first two because of the arm, the latter because somehow I wound up behind every old lady and truck in Ottawa.

But the fun part was my dealership has a good TV in its service department and lots of chairs. Someone had put it on a channel that has all those Court TV thingies on it.

Usually I can't watch that stuff. Too soap-opera-ish and I can't bear watching what people do to each other. Today I had to. I was the only female in the room (there were 4-5 men there). OK so I watched it. It was HILARIOUS!!!! That stuff can't be real. It's just too funny/stupid. Not as gross at Jerry Springer, but pretty darn funny. One of the judges is a pretty nice looking guy. And bonus, now my baby (car) is all fixed for spring/summer. Those ugly snows are off.

R***rs cable called me the minute I got home to apologize for the behaviour of whoever it was. The caller was the manager of the Ottawa office. They wanted to give me a month free, but I declined, advising that I'm changing providers because I"m just too ticked off. They were very understanding of it and promised to get to the bottom of it. I hope they do, this kind of thing is obviously not acceptable. I pointed out that there is only one way to get this kind of info for an unpublished number. Anyway, not my prob anymore.

It's a coincidence, but MAN am I glad I'm getting the security system now. The R***rs manager said that the person who did this harassing will not be working for R***rs anymore. YAY. GOOD. If they live up to this, R***rs no longer sucks.

Am running out of spring cleaning energy. About bleeping time too. There is LOTS more to do, am just mellowing out now.....oh man just realized I have to vacuum before the security guys show up on Wednesday. Well, after NCIS on Tuesday I know what I'm going to be doing, sigh.

Happy Monday, world!!!

Bridg

Sunday, April 16, 2006

On With The Show This Is It!

Happy Easter World!

Was just as busy today and it was my Sis who did the cooking! Despite my ummm non preference of ham, dinner was great. But am getting ahead of myself.

Did so much today that I forgot half of what I did. What I do remember is getting rid of six bags of pillows, towels, and sheet sets (good ones too, I just was not going to use them anyway) and giving them to the Salvation army.

Filled four trash bags full of, well, trash. The paper recycling thingie is so full that you can't fit another sheet of paper into it. Defrosted and poured away a dozen (maybe more) cans of OJ and frozen ice tea that I had prior to moving into this house at least a decade ago down the sink. Ewwwww.

Cleaned out the desk that this computer rests on and found games I forgot that I had. Caught up on my sewing. Took about a dozen framed pieces of art (I got them at hobby shops) to the basement from the second floor (not easy with your arm in a splint), yada yada yada. Prettied up Peggy's room (the second bedroom that isn't mine or the Most Spoiled Cat In The Universe's. Peggy's my bud in Newfoundland. She visits once a year or so and is battling breast cancer.

Have a fasting blood test tomorrow (cholesterol junk), hormone tests (they take about 10-12 vials for that but they're little). Need to do more damn laundry (skipped doing it the last three weeks or so), change the sheets, make soup, take the car to the garage, change insurance agents (my old one died and they assigned me to an idiot who drove Mom nuts) and check on the Sympatico rate. It's so low I think I misunderstood).

Have not had this much energy in years. Didn't want to relax this weekend (like I usually do), but if someone brags to me tomorrow about doing that, I'm going to hurt them.

Somebody stop me!!!

Bridg

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Jump (Bounce)

Trivia of a different kind. You may have seen this before. In honour of spring housecleaning and June Pointer who died recently at age 52, here are some trivia re Bounce (might be blarney but hey worth a shot):

The US Postal service allegedly sent out a message to all letter carriers to put a sheet of Bounce in their uniform pockets to keep yellow-jackets away. The yellow jackets just veer around you.

It will chase ants away when you lay a sheet near them.

It also repels mice (OK that does it. Bounce is going into Bridg's kitchen). Spread sheets around foundation areas, or in trailers(no Bridg doesn't live in one), or cars (not in a car either yet) that are sitting and it keeps mice from entering your vehicle.

It takes the odor out of books and photo albums that don't get opened too often.

It repels mosquitoes. Tie a sheet of Bounce through a belt loop when outdoors during mosquito season.

Eliminate static electricity from your television (or computer) screen. Since Bounce is designed to help eliminate static cling, wipeyour television screen with a used sheet of Bounce to keep dust from resettling.

Dissolve soap scum from shower doors. Clean with a sheet of Bounce.

To freshen the air in your home - Place an individual sheet of Bounce in a drawer or hang in the closet.

Put a Bounce sheet in vacuum cleaner.

Prevent thread from tangling. Run a threaded needle through a sheet of Bounce before beginning to sew (sew?).

Prevent musty suitcases. Place an individual sheet of Bounce inside empty luggage before storing.

To freshen the air in your car - Place a sheet of Bounce under the front seat.

Clean baked-on foods from a cooking pan. Put a sheet in a pan, fill with water, let sit overnight, and sponge clean.

The anti-static agentapparently weakens the bond between the food and the pan.

Eliminate odors in wastebaskets. Place a sheet of Bounce at the bottom of the wastebasket.

Collect cat hair. Rubbing the area with a sheet of Bounce will magnetically attract all the loose hairs.

Eliminate static electricity from Venetian blinds. Wipe the blinds with a sheet of Bounce to prevent dust from resettling.

Wipe up sawdust from drilling or sand papering. A used sheet of Bounce will collect sawdust like a tack cloth.

Eliminate odors in dirty laundry. Place an individual sheet of Bounce at the bottom of a laundry bag or hamper.

Deodorize shoes or sneakers. Place a sheet of Bounce in your shoes or sneakers overnight.

Golfers put a Bounce sheet in their back pocket to keep the bees away.

Put a Bounce sheet in your sleeping bag and tent before folding and storing them. It will keep them smelling fresh.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Bridg Fought The Dummies And The Bridg Won (She Thinks...)

Hola world, how are you tonight?

There's a cardinal calling outside my window...lovely!
BTW the experiment last night taking Advil? Worked. Was up till 3:35. Was beside myself again. So the anxiety etc. wasn't a stroke, it was an Advil-topomax-Imovane interaction. And my head ached like the devil all day until just now. Took 200 mgs of topomax and 15 of imovane to sleep. Ouch ouch. Do NOT try that at home.

Had a magnificent and exhausting day. Took mamacita to get her bathlift and a 'daylight' (one of those lights for people with Seasonal Affective Disorder. I think Mom has a touch of this). Then took her to Cora's for lunch. Then to get Mom's hair done while I assembled the bathlift. Noticed that her prescriptions were low so renewed them. Cleaned the wind-blown junk out of her yard, including the ##$$%%^%^ rebar from %#$^*%$ snowplow idiots which I loaded into my car. No I wasn't manic, had a lot to do. A lot.

Picked Mom up. Got food for Most Spoiled Cat In The Universe. Bought bath supplies for Mom, dropped off the rebar at the residence of the idiot snowplowers (nicely), got us Dairy Queen on the way home. Set up Mom's daylight. Then left Mom's place to get my own groceries, a shredder (for bank receipts, etc.), a glare screen for the computer, and went home. During all this, on the cell, set up Sympatico for the computer accounts (high speed) and satellite for all my TVs. Am thrilled. The call screen feature on my phone will be in place in another 24 hours. The Sympatico stuff will be in effect in a bit more than a week. The new security system for the house arrives on Wednesday night. YAHOO!

Got rid of every PIA today (well, addressed the causes). If the idiot who's been harassing me called today, he missed. I've been out since 10:00. It's 6:40 now.

Have been wanting to check out satellite for a while. Also have not been happy with Rogers internet. Am VERY unhappy with this latest stunt. They have not responded to my complaint, not that I expected them to. When I dropped their phone service, they didn't respond until about a month after I went back to Bell. Not my prob!

Gotta go rest! Sis is cooking tomorrow night. I just know it'll be ham. Mom loves it, I hate it with a passion.

Night y'all!!!

Happy Easter!!

Bridg

p.s. Told Mom if she doesn't start eating more (the amount of food in her freezer never decreases--she doesn't appear to gain or lose weight), we're going to start family weigh-ins...kinda sorta didn't go over all that well for some reason ;) but at least she laughed....

Friday, April 14, 2006

R****s' Sales Tactics

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R***RS' SUCKS!!!!!

Hi World. Wasn't it a lovely day today?

Beats me. It looked nice but I was too lazy to get dressed until half an hour ago. It's 6:13 now. The Most Spoiled Cat In The Universe tried to get me up at 7:oo today, the brat. I showed her. Stayed in bed till sometime near 10:00.

Someone has been 'attacking' me by phone. This is sad. Found out by accident that my arrangement to have my phone bill paid through my bank account (everything gets paid that way, I am VERY lazy) was un-done. I don't even LOOK at my phone bill. Just happened to do so a few weeks ago and was shocked to note that it hadn't been paid last month. Called and asked what the heck was going on. They said that I'd asked. Of course I hadn't. In order to make that arrangement, you need to know the address, etc. Hmmm.

Recently had been getting calls from an East Indian guy. I'd tell him he had the wrong number, he'd call back and insist that he had the right one. I'd say no, and hang up. He'd call back yet again. This time I'd get annoyed. Hang up again, and the phone would ring again. I'd ignore it. He called again this a.m. It was the same voice. I hung up, he called again. I said nothing, then he said hello...I hung up. I suspect it's the same person who came to my door to find out why I'd dropped R***rs as my phone service (their service is horrible. They cut my mother's phone service off for three days for no reason at all, put me on hold for an hour and a half when I called to report the situation; and pretty much did the same thing to me myself. This fellow didn't see the problem with that. BTW, I have a sign on my door saying 'no solicitation'). That person was East Indian. Hmmm. The only people who would have my phone information would be R***rs. Because my phone info is unlisted. And R***rs was my phone service until recently.

My Internet service provider is R***rs. It won't be by Monday, believe me. Ditto with my cable. I can't prove that it was this fellow playing pranks with my phone and service, but I did do a *69 to get the phone number from which the idiot on the phone this a.m. called. I will call the police if it happens again.

Sad.

Of course, this day commerates a VERY sad event.

It is blessedly difficult to find a cable internet service provider in this town (heh heh at least we have electricity). I am having the dickens of a time doing it and have spent hours at this task. Might go to satellite. At the moment am totally out of patience.

To give you a giggle: I found out where the so called snowplow folks hide I mean are. It's in my old neighborhood (where I lived as a teenager). I'm taking the(ir) rebar and am going to leave it in THEIR driveway after dark tee hee hee. So it can be their problem

Took two Advil to see if it makes me hyper again. I think it is. That will disprove the stroke theory. I hope.

Have a good evening, folks. If you have any advice at all re cable internet service providers, please let me know. This is driving me nuts.

Not that it was a long trip ha ha ha!

Bridg

UPDATE

The Advil made me VERY hyper. Took two Imovane and the usual 200 mg topomax to sleep, and even then was up till 3:35. Could not find the so-so snowplowers' house, so I left the rebar in the gutter next to a park. It still has their name at the top of it. That should get them into trouble. OK off to get Mom a bathlift.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Mixed Bag (Chock Full O' Nuts Is A Heavenly Coffee....)

Well world....

Didn't see much of M, but that's OK. He wore that damn black outfit which ...oh never mind. He looks like a slice of heaven in it.

Went to see the gp for my first physical ever. Guys, imagine getting a prostate thingie from Jessica Simpson. Or worse, a butt exam from her. Ladies, imagine getting a pap exam from Geo Clooney, gay or not. He said to start wearing a splint on the broken arm or they'd have to do surgery on it. OK OK I got a damn splint. Actually it looks kinda cool (black). Won't get dirty and goes with everything (lol ike I care!).

My psychiatrist asked me to come in afterwards so I went. She said (wait for it) that there are two probabilities on why I felt so weird --(1)--my theory--that Advil interacted with the topomax or (2)--her theory--I had a stroke.

Yah, you read it right. A stroke.

I love being old(er).

She isn't changing my meds but is bringing me back in two weeks.

Said I wasn't manic, because if I was, I would have been raging and I wasn't. No indeed I wasn't. If that had been the case I would have stayed home.

Can't tell Mom or SHE'LL have a stroke. Told M and he just about had one.

Then went home and told you guys.

The security guys (ADT) cancelled. The installation guy has a cold (wuss). First they promised a rate of $25 per month and no intro fee. Then they upped the monthly to $35 and added an intro fee. Then cancelled on me today, instead of reassigning the job.

Think I need a new security company.

The snow plow folks who never showed up most of the year? Causing the ice on which I fell and broke my arm? I called them today (at 10:00 or so) to get them to remove the rebar with their sign on it from my lawn. There are vandals around who like smashing lawn lanterns. Mine and Emmi's have been broken once. They cost around $90 each and I don't feel like reinstalling one with a broken arm (caused by the snow plow guys) because the snow plow guys are too lazy to pick up their stuff (i.e. the vandals could use the rebar to smash the lawn lanterns--the rebars are right next to the lanterns).

The rebar is still there at 6:00 tonight. It isn't like they're busy snowplowing. Or cutting grass.

Sigh.

I'm not doing so well at picking service companies these days.

yours in utter disgust,

Bridg

UPDATE:

The very first (well known) replacement security company I called tonight was PERFECT! First, they were still in the office at 8:30 on the eve of a long weekend (heresy in Canada, or just about anywhere). Their rate is $25 per month. Free installation, NO administration/other fees. I can get a free special feature of my choice, which I've made. They also have an additional sound feature (again, free). So those other losers are outa here. The new guys are installing on Wednesday.

If the first idiots ever have the nerve to call me back, I'm hanging up on them. OR I'll tell them that I have a cold.

And the rebar for the snowplow idiots? If I get bored tomorrow, I'm driving over to their place to dump it on their lawn.

Bridg (impish once more)

Heigh Ho Heigh Ho It's Off To Work I (groan) Go

Just a quickie, world since it's 7:59. Didn't take Advil with the witch's brew of stuff I now 'normally' take. So far I'm my so-called normal self. Am calm, cool, collected and as usual, a smart alek.

So things are as normal as they ever are with Bridg. I think this is good news. Still have the gp appointment today and am still going to give the shrink a hard time about those meds. Am bringing all my meds with me to the gp and needed an entire cloth grocery bag to do it (ick ew) but hey. Did get a good night's sleep. It's raining here but it's a four day weekend yippee!!!

And they're installing the security system tonight YIPPEEE again.

And I have to pay for it every month :( Oh welll.........


Have a great day world. If you play, happy HNT.

I don't and damn are you guys lucky :)) !!!!!

Love y'all, Bridg

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Sunshine Reggae

I don't care if I've used this one before. Like it.

Have a new motto. "I don't care". Cause I don't. Pauly has one like it: "Don't harsh my mellow". His is classier but hey, never said I was classy. Or smart. This is because at the moment, have bigger fish to fry, to wit:

The new meds are not exactly helping me. Well, am sleeping. Today woke up at 9:00. That's sort of starting time at work. M said to put on my jogging pants and get into work (ho ho ho--jogging pants). Went into work after I cleaned my purse, had brekkie and did the mail. At the crack of 10:00.

It takes the efforts of Hercules to do 5 tasks a day these days, normally I get at least 10 done (OK so 3 is normal so what). Have gone through 100 of my 151 e-mails and can't bear to even look at the 51 remaining. Is very very hard to concentrate on anything. M notices it (because he knows me so well) but it's hell. Woke up with very sore calf muscles (a sign of protein something or other, a bad drug reaction). Left a message for the psychiatrist tonight. Am seeing the gp tomorrow at 2:30. How would you guys like to get a prostate exam from Cindy Crawford or Jessica Simpson? Well, I'm getting the equivalent of that tomorrow. LOVELY. Have never had a male doctor in my life until now.

Oh well. It could be worse.

He could be twins.

Not much else is going on and even if there was, couldn't sit still long enough to type it.

This is nuts!!

Later, world!

Bridg

Monday, April 10, 2006

Smart Ass Questions (not trick questions)

These are not trick questions. They are straight questions with straight answers.
Please don't hate me for posting them. Someone sent them to me.

1. Name the one sport in which neither the spectators nor the participants knows the score or the leader until the contest ends.

2. What famous North American landmark is constantly moving backward?

3. Of all vegetables, only two can live to produce on their own for several growing seasons.
All other vegetables must be replanted every year. What are the only two perennial vegetables?

4. Name the only sport in which the ball is always in possession of the team on defense, and the offensive team can score without touching the ball?

5. What fruit has its seeds on the outside?

6. In many liquor stores, you can buy pear brandy, with a real pear inside the bottle. The pear is whole and ripe, and the bottle is genuine; it hasn't been cut in any way. How did the pear get inside the bottle?

7. Only three words in standard English begin with the letters "dw" and they are all common words. Name two of them.

8. There are 14 punctuation marks in English grammar. Can you name at least half of them?

9. Where are the lakes that are referred to in the Los Angeles Lakers?

10. There are 7 ways a baseball player can legally reach first base without getting a hit. Taking a base on balls (a walk) is one way. Name the other 6.

11. Name the only vegetable or fruit that is never sold frozen, canned, processed, cooked, or in any other form except fresh.

12. Name 6 or more things that you can wear on your feet beginning with the letter "S."

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Answers To Quiz:
1. The one sport in which neither the spectators nor the participants know the score or the leader until the contest ends . . . boxing

2. North American landmark constantly moving backward . . Niagara Falls (the rim is worn down about two and a half feet each year because of the millions of gallons of water that rush over it every minute.)

3. Only two vegetables that can live to produce on their own for several growing seasons . . asparagus and rhubarb.


4. The only sport in which the ball is always in possession of the team on defense, and the offensive team can score without touching the ball . . . baseball.

5. The fruit with its seeds on the outside . strawberry.

6. How did the pear get inside the brandy bottle? It grew inside the bottle.(The bottles are placed over pear buds when they are small, and are wired in place on the tree. The bottle is left in place for the entire growing season. When the pears are ripe, they are snipped off at the stems.)

7. Three English words beginning with dw . dwarf, dwell and dwindle.

8. Fourteen punctuation marks in English grammar . . . period, comma, colon, semicolon, dash, hyphen, apostrophe, question mark, exclamation point, quotation marks, brackets, parenthesis, braces, and ellipses.

9. The original lakes referred to in Lakers . . . in Minnesota.(The team was originally known as the MinneapolisLakers, and kept the name when they moved west.)

10. Seven ways a baseball player can legally reach first base without getting a hit . . . taking a base on balls (a walk) . . batter hit by a pitch, passed ball, catcher interference, catcher drops third strike, fielder's choice, and being designated as a pinch-runner.

11. The only vegetable or fruit never sold frozen, canned, processed, cooked, or in any other form but fresh lettuce.

12. Six or more things you can wear on your feet beginning with "s" . . . shoes, socks, sandals, sneakers, slippers, skis, skates, snowshoes, stockings, stilts

Longest Night (Day) Of The Year

Well, world, it wasn't that bad, really!!! But man, I live to retire. I'd be SUCH a great bum!!! I'm good at doing nothing.

M thinks I"m crazy. Pointed out that I always work when I'm off. Yahhh but.... it's different when it's YOUR stuff. The troops, bless their hearts, didn't want me to come in and find my office had turned into a warehouse of (new) furniture, so they unwrapped my new stuff and arranged it for me. Aren't they the best? T bird and A did it for me, and they don't really work with me anymore! I love them both!!!

T bird dropped by and explained that she had applied for the job she now has a long long time ago, and that she really likes working with me. I said it was mutual, and if she doesn't like the new job to come right back. She grinned. Have to admit I missed these guys while I was off. Marc dropped by too to chat. They are the greatest. Didn't recognize the office when I walked into it--it looks DECENT now. Actually shouted 'what the F___!' when I opened the door this a.m. and the lady across the hall laughed. It WAS funny. I don't usually yell, and don't usually say stuff like that.

Then spent a lot of time answering e mails with messages like 'who are you and why did you sent me this?'. That was fun. Can't say that the people who got those messages saw the humor in it but what the heck. M was amused by it, and that counts.

OK Poppy Cede, here is where I prove I'm an idiot.

I am in the job I'm in temporarily on a two year assignment. In the paperwork that got me here, M's boss committed to hire me on a permanent basis to my old boss (Mr. B, pond scum). I'm paid very well, because I used to be a lot more senior than I am now. Decided that I did not like it and demoted myself through a loophole that doesn't exist anymore. There are a few ways that I could be staffed--fast or slow. Bear in mind that there remains one year and five months to do this in. M is permanent mainly because I asked M's boss to do that. M has been in his job three months. I've been here seven. I didn't care about being permanent. Until now. Something is in the air. I can't explain it, but I'm very good at sensing these things. Really good. Every time I pick up on this, very bad things happen. Every. Single. Time. Since 1980. Asking M to staff me now means a $6K cut. I don't care. Insisted that he do it. Now. He agreed. Hope he succeeds. He has three days to start it. Then he's on holidays for two weeks.

It isn't every day your senior staff asks for a $6K cut.

Oh well. Onto other news.

I found out that I only owe $339 in taxes, fines and interest for 2004 and am getting back money for 2005. Cool. No jail.

I really like that accountant. Will definitely never do my own taxes again. She is neat! Funny too. She left a message for me at work--'good news! We're not going to jail, at least not this year!'.

Am also getting a security system installed. Found out that someone broke into the house across the street while the people AND THEIR DOGS were at home. We all live in townhouses and it was a townhouse that was burglarized. In the daytime. That is high density housing. The burglars must have been stoned out of their minds.

Scary.

Wonder if the dogs were stoned??? What kind of idiot breaks into houses with dogs??? In broad daylight??? This isn't a high crime area!

I'm scared for my cat!! They can take what they want, just leave Smokey alone!!!

Not that there's anything to steal, unless treadmills are worth stealing (rolling on floor laughing)...

Night world!!

Bridg (hiding under the bed)

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Pleasant Valley Sunday

Hi World! Hope your Sunday was as great or greater than mine!

Tossed and turned but eventually slept fine. Those sheets felt wonderful. Don't think that juggling TV sets with a slightly broken arm was a great idea before going to sleep. Guess it counts as a form of exercise.

But it turns out that the cable DOES work in the bedroom after all, even if the set doesn't have a sleep setting.

Most Spoiled Cat In The Universe was starving to death first thing today. Took precisely two bites of food this a.m. but then was fine (shaking head). I took Mom to a huge Loblaws grocery store here and managed to lose her for about half an hour. Even had her paged (which she didn't hear). Almost went to the police but she managed to find me. The store is a city block long, so there's more than enough space to lose a person in. Anyway....I wound up getting a small TV to use while I'm on the treadmill. Then realized that there's no cable in the basement, and that it's damn hard to carry the set into the basement with the gimpy arm.

I.am.not.smart.

ARGH.

Anyhow, it's all fixed now.

Gave away two plants, old ones from an ex bf, to Emmi next door. Rang the doorbell first. She wasn't home so I left them on her doorstep, giggling all the way. That's the kind of thing she does to me all the time and I loved doing it back (OK I did explain it to her later and she agreed).

Soooo do not want to go back to work tomorrow. Cannot express how much I don't want to go back there.

But have been spending money like a drunken sailor so it'd be a nice idea to earn some. Damn. Oh yah it'd be nice to see M again.

OK OK OK (to quote Joe Pesci). Will go back, dammit.

Took Mom to see the bathlift today. She's very excited about the idea. Turns out that insurance will pay for it if it's prescribed by a doctor. Mom has a doctor appointment on Tuesday. Since she ALWAYS forgets to ask the doctor important stuff, arranged for Bro to go in with her so HE can ask. I told him what to ask and why. TA DA. We are halfway there and I'm very excited about this. She loves baths, this is important to her. Sis and her partner dropped in to see Mom this aft too and they took her to lunch. So Mom heard from or saw most of her brood today. I know that's very important to her too. Sigh. THAT 's a good day!!!

OK world. Off to put up black-out panels. I've only lived here 14 years (across the street from the street lamp. Never said I was smart).

Have a great evening!!!

Hugs, Bridg

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Lemon Tree

Jimminy Cricket it's Lemoney Snicket!

I posted the other day that my aura came out many shades of blue. Two different and very nice psychics advised me to sleep in daffodil colored sheets and T shirts. Well, although some of you may laugh at me for being easily influenced, today I got those sheets and T shirts and put them on. They look quite nice and weren't that easy to find. One of the psychics chided me for having a rather cluttered house, co-incident with what I'd been thinking, so tonight I spent quite a bit of effort and time (with a still slightly painful broken arm no less) moving TV sets and other paraphenelia all over the place. Have not finished but the results are quite pleasing. In the process some things kind of broke, and I had to reassemble it but it was well worth it. The cat was confused, but just finished a few minutes ago for the night. The sheets are really nice. Even got lemony colored towels. Must have thrown out (OK, recycled) a pile of cooking magazines about 3 feet high. No kidding.

Took Mom to get her hair done, also picked up some very nice cookies and other goodies for her. We both were exhausted by the end of the shopping. Aging sucks. What used to be an hour's chore is now hours' chore. For BOTH of us. I can't believe that I painted the downstairs of this house by myself only a few years ago, and it's irritating. Why can't I do that now? Argh. Oh well, that's life.

What was really funny was buying sweat pants in the petites section (I'm 5'8" tall). At least three people told me I was in the wrong section. Held the pants up to my waist. They laughed when the pants fit me. I have a 'long waist' and short stumpy legs. It's really funny.

OK I think it's funny!!!

Hope your Saturday was great world.

"See" ya tomorrow!

Love, Bridg

Friday, April 07, 2006

Pet-ing

Thanks Tshsmom!!!
Where do pets come from?
A newly discovered chapter in the Book of Genesis has provided the answer to "Where do pets come from?"
Adam and Eve said, "Lord, when we were in the garden, you walked with us every day. Now we do not see you any more. We are lonesome here, and it is difficult for us to remember how much you love us."
And God said, I will create a companion for you that will be with you and who will be a reflection of my love for you, so that you will love me even when you cannot see me. Regardless of how selfish or childish or unlovable you may be, this new companion will accept you as you are and will love you as I do, in spite of yourselves."
And God created a new animal to be a companion for Adam and Eve.
And it was a good animal.
And God was pleased.
And the new animal was pleased to be with Adam and Eve and he wagged his tail.
And Adam said, "Lord, I have already named all the animals in the Kingdom and I cannot think of a name for this new animal."
And God said, " I have created this new animal to be a reflection of my love for you, his name will be a reflection of my own name, and you will call him
DOG."
And Dog lived with Adam and Eve and was a companion to them and loved them.
And they were comforted.
And God was pleased.
And Dog was content and wagged his tail.
After a while, it came to pass that an angel came to the Lord and said, "Lord, Adam and Eve have become filled with pride. They strut and preen like peacocks and they believe they are worthy of adoration. Dog has indeed taught them that they are loved, but perhaps too well."
And God said, I will create for them a companion who will be with them and who will see them as they are. The companion will remind them of their limitations, so they will know that they are not always worthy of adoration."
And God created CAT to be a companion to Adam and Eve.
And Cat would not obey them. And when Adam and Eve gazed into Cat's eyes, they were reminded that they were not the supreme beings.
And Adam and Eve learned humility.
And they were greatly improved.
And God was pleased
And Dog was happy.
And Cat didn't give a shit one way or the other.

L'Amour Est Bleu

Well world, happy Friday! It is cold and overcast here but it IS Friday!

And supposedly going to be warm tomorrow (ha ha ha).

Today the Psychic Fair opened and of course Yours Truly was there an hour before it opened. Also got my hair done before it opened, since I was looking like the oddest white and brown long haired zebra. Now the hair is shorter but at least the white part of the zebra is gone.

Got an aura photo taken, as usual. I have so much energy that you can't see my face. That's normal too. But there's more than normal. You can only see the smallest streak of my face (the bridge of my nose). The rest of me is obscured by clouds of color, in this case, clouds of various shades of blue and white. The shades of blue are called magical glue (spiritually focused), earth blue (deep peace), aquamarine (peaceful, spiritual), blue (peaceful, spiritual). There used to be a hole in my heart chakra which is now gone for the first time in years. That's some kind of healing. Saw two psychics who both told me to wear bright yellow and saw money, love and physical healing in the very near future. This is a first. One of these psychics (the one who does the aura photos) is brutally honest, detailed and very accurate. Cool.

Are any of you interested in gemstones? Have you heard of pink moonstones? Well, me neither but found some at this show. Very pretty.

Didn't do much else today. Have plans to take Mom to get her hair done tomorrow, take her grocery shopping, then go to craft show and THEN clean up house/garage (since one of the psychics kind of chided me about cluttered rooms in my reading--and I'd been kind of thinking the same thing lately).

Also talked to M. Love talking to that man. Missed him these last two weeks. Have one week with him, then he's gone for two weeks. Sigh. Hey one of the psychics picked up on him too. He said that T bird found another job nearby. Kind of knew that that was coming.

Happy Friday all!!!

Bridg

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Baby I Love Your Way

Love Peter Frampton, world. Love you too world. In fact, love EVERYONE, now that I've had a decent sleep lol!

My doc had me take 200 mgs of topirimate last night. According to the very-disturbed-looking pharmacist, that's a heavy dose of the stuff. Google said that it has a lot of uses, including bipolarism, epilepsy/convulsions, alcoholism (no don't have that or epilepsy), and appetite. It also can cause eye problems and kidney stones. But I don't expect to be on this long, probably just through April which is when I have sleeping problems. Am just so damn frickin relieved to be able to sleep it isn't funny. Odd how important sleeping is.

Bro, I and Mom talked to a bunch of sales/installation folks today about getting stairlifts installed at Mom's. We are not talking about $2500 here (as we originally thought), we are talking $10K. Why? Because Mom's stairs are not straight, they are curved. That means either straightening her stairs ( probably $5K altogether) or curving the stairlift ($10K). Man what a racket. But we're doing one or the other--either one is cheaper than moving Mom. Fortunately, Bro has a brother-in-law who's in construction. So are getting estimates done this weekend. Whew. We had lunch together after interviewing all these folks, which was fun.

Then I took Mom to get a six month pass for aquafit and got one myself too. So ta-da, we are/will be getting fitter. Didn't give her time to argue her way out of it! Things are thundering along. Sis will be proud of the way that things are going. I could see the wheels turning in Mom's head as she tried to think of arguments for not doing the aquafit (after promising to do it many times). Nope, I wasn't having any of it and now we are both signed up (in different classes) to go. Yea!

Also got my med prescriptions filled. Sheesh what do people do without medical plans? Just three different types of pills (I think I take about eight for the bipolar, sleeping, diuretics and heart stuff) today cost over $400. WOW. And those will last only a few months. Yeesh.

There appears to be a link between bipolarism and ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder--which one of Bro's sons has) and bipolarism. Have not found much on it but did find a little. Don't worry, won't bore you with it. Is interesting tho.

Anyway, off to watch TV.

Night, world (I hope!). Best to ya!!

Love, Bridg

Three Horses


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Moondog Howl

Wow world! Took a few minutes to fall asleep last night, but sleep I did. Woke up a bit early, had the best sleep I've had in YEARS. It's sunny, feel great and refreshed. Almost don't feel like myself, feel so good.

It's sunny, cool and bright.

Wow.

Bridg

Vic's Been At It Again!

Three Canadian blondes died and found themselves standing before St Peter.
He told them that before they could enter the Kingdom,they had to tell him what Easter represented.

The first blonde said, "Easter is a holiday where they have a big feast and we give thanks and eat turkey." St. Peter said, "Noooooo," and he banished her to Hell.

The second blonde said, "Easter is when we celebrate Jesus' birth and exchange gifts." St. Peter said, "Noooooo," and he banished her to Hell as well.

The third blonde said she knew what Easter was, and St. Peter said, "So, tell me."She said, "Easter is a Christian holiday that coincides with the Jewish festival of Passover. Jesus was having Passover Feast with His disciples when He was betrayed by Judas, and the Romans arrested Him. The Romans hung Him on the cross and eventually He died. Then they buried Him in a tomb behind a very large boulder ... ?

St. Peter said, "Verrrrrry good."

Then the blonde continued, "Now, every year the Jews roll away the boulder and Jesus comes out.

If he sees his shadow, we have six more weeks of hockey."

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Moondance

Hi world! Well, it was another 'still awake at 4' night here at Bridg's house last night/morning. Thence I discovered (a) there is not much interesting on tv at that hour (b) I didn't have anything fun to eat either (c) there isn't much point to being awake at that hour!

Finally did sleep, and woke up at noon. On general principles, went out and got my Mom some stuff that she needs at the one good store in town that handles stuff for everyday living for seniors (a Shoppers' Drug Mart in Westgate). Got her a long handled shoe horn, a funny-shaped but very useful back washer, and a back scratcher. Also discovered a battery-powered chair that raises and lowers you into the bathtub! This may sound silly, but at $1500, it is cheaper than installing a new sit-down bathtub. Mom loves baths. Right now all she can do is sit in a chair and take an assisted shower once a week, and she needs one more frequently than once a week. Isn't this great? I think so! Mom did too. Am very happy with this discovery. Also bought a light box for me. Both Mom and I are light sensitive, and it sure can't hurt to have more light. It was $249.

Then, since my Bro gave me a Chapters gift certificate, went there next. Spent way more than the certificate was worth on books on menopause, bipolarism, insults (of course, this IS Bridg you know!), the latest Dilbert on vague objectives, and a copy of the most recent Harry Potter DVD.

Then went to Sobey's and rectified the lack of fun stuff to eat situation. Got cheese. I know that's bad for cholesterol/heart, but it's great for sleeping. Cheese has lots of tryptophan (sleep-causing stuff) in it. Got bread too. For some reason it makes me sleepy. And rumballs, for no reason other than I like them and was being generally naughty. Then called psychiatrist, advised her of last night's non-sleep. I have another appointment there tomorrow, in the meantime have to take two of the whateveritis that she gave me (double the dose). Will join Mom and Bro late in the stairlift interviews.

Guess that was retail therapy. And I still have gift certificates from Christmas at another store to use up. OMG also got certificates for the same store for my birthday too. OK have to go there soon.

It's just sinking in that this is not a minor thing. Am not happy about it but am relieved that it's more or less under control and that I don't have as extreme a case as my late dad did (or that my ex bf did). Am also glad that I have not passed this on to a new generation. Still think it sucks but am lucky on balance.

No wonder there are people on the street. I'm fortunate enough to have a family that made me get a formal education and (consequently) a good job. Not everyone is in that boat. There is so little that separates us all....Thank you one and all!

Hugs and love to all, Bridg

Call Me!

Thanks for this classic, Georgie!

A woman was sitting at a bar enjoying an after work cocktail with her
girlfriends when an exceptionally tall, handsome, extremely sexy
middle-aged man entered. He was so striking that the woman
could not takeher eyes off him. The young-at-heart man noticed
her overly attentive stareand walked directly toward her. (As all men will.)
Before she could offer her apologies for so rudely staring, he leaned over
and whispered to her,"I'll do anything, absolutely anything, that you want
me to do, no matterhow kinky, for $20.00...... on one condition."

Flabbergasted, the woman asked what the condition was. The man
replied,"You have to tell me what you want me to do in just three words."

The woman considered his proposition for a moment, and then slowly removed a
$20 bill from her purse, which she pressed into the man's hand along with her address.

She looked deeply into his eyes, and slowly and meaningfully said....

"Clean my house."

As Long As I'm Awake

According to my doctor, I'm 'bipolar 2'. Thank God! Why "Thank God"? Look at what bipolar 1 is:

From http://www.helpguide.org/mental/bipolar_disorder_symptoms_treatment.htm


Bipolar disorder (formerly known as manic-depression) is a condition in which a person typically experiences dramatic "mood swings" from periods of extremely elevated moods (mania) to extremely low moods (depression). In most cases, bipolar disorder first appears in young adults, but children and adolescents might also suffer from this disorder.

Signs and symptoms of the manic phase (Bipolar I): never experienced any of these except the spending sprees:
euphoria, feeling "high"
agitation, edginess, irritability, restlessness
racing thoughts, talkativeness
increased energy, sleeplessness well OK this is an issue now..
inflated self-esteem; grandiosity; poor judgment
reckless spending sprees or other activities with high potential for painful consequences Spending sprees yessir!
delusions or hallucinations
drug or alcohol use
increased sexual drive
aggressive behavior
inability to concentrate well

Hypomania (Bipolar II) refers to an episode with less extreme symptoms than full-blown mania.
Although bipolar disorder can be diagnosed from just a manic episode, most persons with this disorder also experience the other extreme, depression.
Signs and symptoms of the depressive state:
abnormally low mood
sadness and hopelessness
excessive feelings of guilt and worthlessness
difficulty concentrating or making decisions
changes in appetite or weight (increase or decrease) Have had this--losses of 65-80 pounds in less than 3 months
fatigue; changes in sleep patterns (increase or decrease) This is what I have now and usually get only in November and April.
loss of self-esteem
diminished interest in daily activities
withdrawal from others
drug or alcohol use
suicidal thoughts, plans or attempts.

A person diagnosed with a Bipolar III condition is identified as "unipolar." He or she experiences recurrent episodes of depression only, but has a family history of mania or hypomania. Never had this

What is the typical course of bipolar disorder?

There is no standard presentation for bipolar disorder. Some people have relatively few or mild episodes. Others may experience rapid cycling (four or more episodes within a year). People can also experience a mixed state, where symptoms of both mania and depression are present at the same time. (Can you imagine what these people go through?)

What causes bipolar disorder?

Abnormalities in the brain (lovely huh?)
The cause of bipolar disorder is under investigation, but there are strong indications that it is a brain-based disorder. It seems that several factors act together to produce the illness. Possibilities include:
an imbalance of neurotransmitters
a genetic disorder
a dysfunction in the mitochondria
Other triggers
When an individual is predisposed to bipolar disorder, an episode can be triggered by:
a major life event
stress in large doses
an antidepressant medication
seasonal fluctuations in light (mania is more prevalent in summer, depression in spring, fall and winter)
sleep loss (so it reinforces itself!)

How is bipolar disorder treated?

The good news about bipolar disorder is that it is treatable. Proper treatment can help reduce the frequency and severity of episodes and can help people who have the disorder maintain a good quality of life. Without treatment by a psychiatrist experienced with this condition, however, the symptoms can become more severe. But each person is unique. A treatment that works for someone else may not work for you. Although this can lead to heartbreaking rounds of hit-or-miss therapy, there are so many treatments and combinations to choose from that there is bound to be something that is right for you.

Medications may not be the total answer, but they can get you on your feet again and help prevent relapses. It is best to view them as one part of the treatment and wellness equation. Treatment of bipolar disorder usually includes a combination of approaches, such as: (except for ECT this is what I'm doing)

medication (mood stabilizers, anti-depressants, and/or anti-anxiety medications)
cognitive behavioral therapy (to challenge and change negative thought patterns and inappropriate behaviors)
psychoeducation (learning about the illness and its treatment; recognizing and preventing relapse)
family therapy (to help family members cope with and manage the stress of bipolar disorder)
social rhythm therapy (to improve interpersonal relationships and to regularize daily routines, to avoid manic episodes)
ECT (electro-convulsive therapy, sometimes used when other treatments are unsuccessful, to "re-set" the brain's electrical system)
nutritional supplements (under investigation to determine if they can help alleviate or prevent bipolar episodes – see below )

One challenge in treating bipolar disorder is that the person often enjoys the excitement of the hypomanic or even the manic state, and does not want to give up those feelings to a medication that will level off moods and may have troublesome side effects. In addition, many people are in denial of the problem, or feel stigmatized about having a "mental illness" and refuse to acknowledge the need for treatment. Education about the cause, consequences, and treatment for bipolar disorder can help these individuals:
come to terms with the condition
recognize symptoms when they appear.
Practical suggestions from families
Encourage the person with bipolar disorder to maintain a strong support system of family members and friends and to use it whenever he or she needs help.

Be a loving, caring family member or friend yourself. See Helpguide's Building and Preserving Joy and Excitement in Adult Relationships eBook on building strong trusting intimate love relationships.

Help the individual find ways to distract or engage him- or herself when the red flags of depression go up, e.g. play a sport, work out, go to a movie, visit a friend.
Try to convince the individual to stay on medication if it is relieving symptoms and improving quality of life and point out symptoms as they begin to emerge.
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I can see why this is considered to be serious--without treatment it could/would be life-threatening. Also feel a new-found sympathy for my late father, trying to deal with this on his own.

Am very glad I'm not dealing with this on my own and that I don't have this as severely as others do. Thank Heaven for medical science!

Bridg