Ravings and Rantings

Welcome to my cloud! It's got a nice silver lining somewhere.....Some ranting, some raving--mostly positive stuff,lots of jokes (I can't stay serious). Nothing going on here that a pina colada or mohito can't fix.

Friday, June 17, 2005

1812 Overture

Hola world. I vaguely remember typing something in one of these entries about waiting for the other shoe to fall.

And fall it did.Not loudly, but quite clearly, fully and personally. Personally on my head/butt too of course. Full of venom and out and out lies. Which I let lie, except for some enlightenments which I am sure were dismissed. I was threatened/guaranteed the ultimate punishment for revealing any of the discussion, which is why I"m not gonna discuss it here or with buds. Sorry guys but it's not really necessary. You already have a really clear picture of the lay of the land already.

Add to that: liar, sociopath, maniputative, hostile and DEFINITELY personal, and presto you have the wonder that is Mr. B.

At first, I thought that mostly insecurity was driving all of this, and that working together would clear up a lot of this crap. I'm a simple, straightforward person, surely the exposure would be good. Then I started thinking about that meant operationally. Working with someone who hates your guts on a 1 to 1 basis for days, months..having to watch my back and explain constantly ...is a mugg's game. I am not patient with stupidity, I detest guile and manipulation or any kind of head games. As far as I'm concerned, they are tools of the weak, insecure and incompetent. Definitely not me.

So after that very draining session (I am not allowed to describe what was said and I won't, ever). I think that you can lose your job over things like this and it ain't worth it.

Of course knowing him, he'll try to prove that I did. It's just part of the game. If I talk to someone in my office, I'm probably briefing him. Yah yah and delivering escort services too.

So today, having had a night to think it over, I decided in my own head to leave. I mean, is it really worth it staying another 14 years, having a knife poised over my back the whole time? Working on one of the trickiest, sure to back fire files available? Nope. Time to do something new, and the idea brightened me up like nothing else has for months. Was given some contacts and worked on them, sent cv out, and others are helping.

Feels better, but have to walk on eggshells. He is an emotional time bomb, just waiting to go off. For now, there's two days' respite. Thank you everyone who had anything to do with weekend days off. I so need them.

The work gang came in to see how I felt about my first week back, which ended today. I said "better", smiled and meant it. They on the other hand will be in crap for daring to talk to me, I will be in crap for conspiring with them. Sadly, I'm not exaggerating.

Thanks Eric, Jer, Pauly, S, Issy, M most of all, Mom, Peggy, Ravel, ZS, Undies and all. I"m falling asleep typing here so I have to stop. The meltdown happened Thursday. The resurrection happened Friday.

Oh goodie. Can't WAIT for tomorrow. Giggle.

Hugs world, Bridg

6 Comments:

  • At 6/18/2005 01:57:00 PM, Blogger .: raven :. said…

    well girl ... i think leaving is the best course of action .. and the sooner the better. you gave it a chance ... you acted the professional .. he's an ASS .. and you do not need it.

    not at all.

    i'd find a job and not give notice where you are now. i would NEVER suggest thing, but since things are so hostile there, i'd do it for my own protection and safety. i didn't quite get if you have Labor and Employment laws in Canada .. but he's definitely creating a hostile work environment and has been harassing you ... both of which are clearly against the law in the U.S.

    i'm sorry you're going through this, but maybe this is the nudge you're getting ... to move on because something phenomenal is around the corner, but you'll never see it if you stay where you are.

     
  • At 6/18/2005 04:00:00 PM, Blogger The Zombieslayer said…

    Leave, definitely. A job is not worth your sanity.

    Best of luck. I know how hard that is. If you're wondering why I'm so anti-PC, it's because I worked in Seattle for a big corporation. We had this one guy who never had a father and it showed (sorry for the stereotype, don't want to start anything on your blog, I'm just saying in his case, he fit the stereotype). He used to emotionally bully people, using guilt trips and if you had a problem with it, he'd call you a racist, sexist, etc even though he was very prejudice himself but it's okay for him to be, yet he always found fault in you.

    He was very high up in the company, so if I just up and kicked his ***, it would be me out of a job. He knew that too and took advantage of it. He caused several good people to quit.

    The sad thing is I loved the job. You ever have one of those jobs where you actually enjoy doing the work? Well, that's how that job was.

    That said, I totally sympathize with you. Wish co-workers weren't so emotionally messed up. Everyone else there was so cool too. So I asked to transfer to California because I was afraid one day, I'd come into work and break his jaw.

    The other thing is, he'd keep tabs on people. If I ever went to HR, he'd have stuff on me, like he did on everyone else. So I couldn't go through the system either.

    I really am sorry you have to go through his. I hate manipulators. I totally know what you're going through.

     
  • At 6/18/2005 05:25:00 PM, Blogger Bridget Jones said…

    Hi guys and thanks so very much! I meant to type 'Raven', not 'Ravel' in the blog but man I was dead on my feet/fingers at the time.

    Raven thanks, I did act well I think. I'd describe what he did but I can't legally. Let's say that I've seen 5 year olds behave with more class and insight.

    Yes there are, at least in theory, anti harassment laws here too but they are aimed at protecting managers. Kind of like how rape was treated in the 1930s. This group has had wacko after wacko running it, he's just the latest in a 'proud' tradition (rofl). I'm sick of dealing with bad tempered children dressed up as managers.

    ZS thank you too. I'm sorry that you know what I"m going through. Big orgs seem to have niches full of these types of snakes. Oh well there must be some life lesson involved.

    I think this child keeps tabs too. He seems to be the type. I know what you mean about kid-less people/managers. I don't have kids either but I don't 'behave' like this. He does have kids and I bet they make his life a living hell. Think that's why he acts out so much at work.

    So anyone want to hire a fast typing smart ass?

    Actually I have started looking and two ex bosses want to hire me. Hopefully it's a matter of time. I am sick & tired of this org's subject area (it's been almost 20 years) and a change would be marvelous. Especially if it involves not dealing with ....what did Chris say?.....oversensitive, incompetent, underqualified idiots? Something like that...

    Thanks for letting me vent guys. That felt good.

    OK I'll be nice old Bridg now.....

     
  • At 6/18/2005 06:18:00 PM, Blogger ann said…

    Yes, you should GET OUT now. Nothing is worth feeling the way you do... Not even a paycheck.

     
  • At 6/18/2005 07:01:00 PM, Blogger tshsmom said…

    Ain't it a bitch? The crap we have to put up with just to pay our bills. Don't let yourself sink to his level; you're way better than that!

     
  • At 6/18/2005 09:14:00 PM, Blogger Bridget Jones said…

    Thanks ann and tshsmom! Totally agree I gotta get the heck out of there asap. Not from fear, just disgust and lack of patience.

    Have any of you seen the movies Batman Begins? I just took my mother to see it tonight and it helped a great deal. Might even see it again tomorrow, it's that good (10 out of 10 potatoes!). It gets into the justice/vengence thing really well.

    Agree that a paycheck/paycheque isn't worth this ****. It was very hard to not reply to some of what was said (lies and attributing his failure to me. On second thought wow does that make me powerful ;)).

    Thanks to all of you, esp. tshsmom, for saying that I"m better than that, 'cause I agree. Hopefully this won't take long. If it does and if it continues to be what it is, heaven knows what it'll do to my health and then action will be taken. By me.

    Hugs, Bridg

     

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